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smile - Golden cart Frodo

MEFA nominations final: jan-u-wine a nominee

Posted on 2010.06.16 at 22:56


(Anonymous) at 2010-07-04 23:35 (UTC) (Link)

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Writing for a living is definitely what I want to do and what I have finally discovered my vocation to be. The book I am writing is the beginning of that and I have several others already waiting and a bunch of papers/essays I want to write and all sorts of fun stuff! I love research. I'm one of those cracked people who actually loved to do term papers in school. It would be fun to go back to that! But I'm fine where I am too - working on this book and enjoying all the research and writing. I want to help others along the Road just as I have been.

I find your comments about the honeymoon and marriage interesting and perhaps that's what it is. I feel a greater respect for Frodo now, more mature, not that I was ever just a silly giggly girl about it. I think I liked to over-angst things too much before with him. I don't think he was under duress to show me what he did in A Secret Gate (which I keep wanting to call Garden) but that he agreed when asked. When I was first really growing spiritually, I wrote a lot about that type of writing and felt I was being guided by the Holy Spirit, and that maybe I was being prepared for something that if I could only figure how Frodo would respond properly to it, I could do also because I felt he and I had so much in common in how we would react to things in good and bad ways. And it would be a lot easier for me to sort all this out (primarily how he would heal from PTSD) ahead of time so I would have an easier time myself. Such an event has not come about for me, but still it was interesting to explore things with him. Those days especially I would leave my work be for overnight to see it anything else was going to be imparted.

Very interesting comments here, but RW is calling LOUDLY here too, with dinner ready.

Namarie, God bless, Antane :)

jan_u_wine at 2010-07-05 16:08 (UTC) (Link)

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(btw....the first comment showed up (for me) HOURS after this one did. Ah, the vagaries of the computer)

I'm so glad that you are exploring the possibility of writng as a pro. I've been encouraged to do so, but it's difficult, certainly. Until/unless that takes off, I still need to take care of the daily needs of life. So, it's a bit of a juggle.....

It's wonderful that you've had this long weekend to work on your book...and yes, that is, indeed, a lot like being at home and on vacation all at once. (don't you love Sam? He says such wise things). I have to say that I love research, too, although at times I get pulled off into so many side roads that I scarcely remember where I was going in the first place. I have close to 300 poems in my drafting files that are the results of such inability to concentrate properly, lol....

but.....it isn't about the poems, per se, nor even about the book you are writing. Those things are the by-products of what truly is going on, which is (for myself (and I think I may include you!)) spiritual growth and renewal. I have a friend who told me once, "God doesn't care how you come to Him, He only wants you to come". I'm not sure I can agree with that whole-heartedly, but I can agree with it *mostly*. JRR may not have written LOTR as a religious book, but it is spiritual, nontheless. Some people only see the story of it, the plain facts on the plain paper. Other people see it as an invitation to their own spiritual Quest. I suppose that I am one of those. Frodo was granted an education along his Road. We who feel enjoined to walk alongside him have the honour of sharing that.

(Anonymous) at 2010-07-08 00:30 (UTC) (Link)

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I would definitely pursue writing yourself in any and all scraps of time available. I too of course have to remain in a quite consuming job to pay the bills, but free time is spent feeding the soul as much as I can. Writing nonfiction is not the same as fiction because you also have build a 'platform' at the same time to get a following so publishers take you seriously and risk taking a chance on you. It's a full time job in itself all this, one I wish I could just focus solely on.

Yes, I do love Sam, almost but not quite as much as I love the soul he is knit to, or at least one of the two souls. But definitely I love him and I wish there were more of them in the world, which there probably are but being their humble selves you don't hear much. Ah, all the Roads we can follow, or perhaps more accurately all the winding paths that branch off the one Road. I read a motivating book called Time to Write, which is chock full of great ideas.

I do love that quote about God and think it very true because it was through this tale I have come to His Son who I didn't have a relationship with before. He is being very patient with me! When I told my sister this, she said that the Pope had been asked once how many paths were there to God and he said as many as there were individuals. Like others, my path led through Middle-earth and I had no idea whatsoever that the Road would lead where it has! That's another book I want to write one day - testimonials from all those who have been so deeply affected by this. Would love to include your story, if you'd like to share!

And so right that the spirituality of all this, for only in writing, in getting away by myself and working on this book, do I feel my soul refreshed and feed. The job is feeding the pocketbook which is always hungry, but so is the soul so I am glad I can find time to feed it too!

The professor didn't realize at first that he was writing a deeply spiritual book, but later said, it was a "fundamentally religious and Catholic work". A true pencil in God's hands as Blessed Mother Teresa said she wanted to be and as I want to be. Indeed it is an honour to walk along the Road with Frodo for that is where my greatest growth has come.

Must look up your essays on LOTR scrapbook that you mentioned in a reply to someone else.

Namarie, God bless, Antane :)
jan_u_wine at 2010-07-10 15:16 (UTC) (Link)

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re writing: yes, I write in the small scraps of time that I have, although that is very difficult. It's easier for me to write a scrap of non-fiction than it is to write a 'scrap' of a poem. Not often do the 'doors' of those poems re-open, once they've been shut.

Sam: it's hard for me to express in prose my feelings for Samwise. To me, he's not a person easy to pin words upon. Like most things which seem simple, he's not. So, I'll just say that I love him. Like my children, I can't say I love him more or less than his companions, only in a way most suited to *sam* being *sam* and *jan* being *jan*, with an unique intersection at some point.

I think that's marvellous that LOTR led you to a relationship with God and that you will someday write a book of stories of similar folk. As for my story, there really isn't one, at least not related to the LOTR/religious connection. I should say that I've always had a spiritual bent and that LOTR focused it more. But i think to say that LOTR brought me to God would be incorrect.

Mechtild rec'd a book to me that you might enjoy reading (or perhaps you already have)called "Story of a Soul". It is very beautiful, I think.

I'm not sure what you are saying about essays of mine. I have not written LOTR essays (except in replies such as these, LOL). But there are essays on the scrapbook, wonderful ones. But not mine.

I have written some religious poetry, and will finish with one that I hope you might like:

"The Other Man Upon the Hill"

I did not find him upon the Hill of the Sorrows.

A wind was there,

and self-centered,

leaves and whirl-dust-dervishes

within its rigid fists.

I did not find him within the Garden.

Only shadows waited there,

bent beneath the burden of darkening sun and sky,

cramped with all the ages of waiting and bearing,

swollen and scrabbling upon terra cotta soil.

I did not find him where I should then most have expected.

His tomb lay empty, the silence of it mirrored greatly by my stilling heart.

I am only human, and so I supposed that he *should* be there.

He should be there,
cold and silent,

purpled upon greying flesh,

torn asunder.

And I should know grief, if he were there, a grief I would recognize, for (and the refrain repeats and repeats) I am human.....

I am



My heart recognizes the truth then and leaps with it,
(at the same time feeling a different sort of grief,
one I cannot name, for all the wanting to):

He is not human.

Or, to put a fine point upon it:

He is human
no longer.

He *is* there,


upon the Hill
which has no sorrow,

within the Garden
which has no


beside me,

in a place of joyful remembrance,
the tomb of pale flesh become a palace

of spirit,

a home eternal.
antane at 2010-07-11 17:39 (UTC) (Link)

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What a lovely poem! I will have to get to your other reply when I can but wanted to compliment you on this poem right away. Very interesting.

I just automatically thought essays for some reason when you said you wrote prose on Scrapbook and then realized when I didn't find any essays that you must have meant stories which I have to return to find.

Is Story of a Soul the autobio of St. Therese the Little Flower? Then I read that years ago but remember little. I think it was called that.

I always had a relationship with God the Father, but not the Son and that's what LOTR has brought me.

Must go,
God bless,
Antane :)
jan_u_wine at 2010-07-11 19:32 (UTC) (Link)

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No problem re reply - take your time. I'm glad that you liked the poem.

Re the prose: ah, I see. No, i don't write essays. Essay-like 'stuff' will come to me when i'm just 'talking' like we are now, but ask me to actually write one in cold blood and that is the end of it. I should think that most of the prose stuff is more comical than anything else. I find it difficult to write "funny" poetry, but I often do have odd ideas (or comic ones if you like) that I'd like to express.

Yes, "Story of a Soul" is St. Therese's autobio.

Ah, interesting that you had a relationship with God but not Jesus. I'll look forward to hearing more of your story. take care,

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